Well I am sorry to hear about your losses and all of that, but it seems like you have a pretty good support system (including other cats) that is there to help you get through it all, which of course is a great thing. I am facing a similar situation right now, and I cannot understand how so many people out there do not like cats, and some of the time actively dislike them. It just does not make sense to me, at all, and I know that it has to do with me growing up with them, but still. I guess I understand if you are allergic to them, but aside from that I am at a loss. I guess you really have to weigh your priorities in life, and sometimes that means making some difficult decisions. Best of luck to you in the future, and thank you for sharing.