Personality of a tarantula owner

I actually came here to ask a similar question so I'm interested in seeing your replies.

I'm absolutely terrified of spiders and even reading about them makes me ill.

I check the corners of a room every time I enter it because I can't handle one in the house. When I see one, I can usually not even get close enough to kill it and have to cry for assistance from my husband. I have to see the body afterward, too. I'm a terrible person. I hate killing bugs and insects of any other kind,but my phobia, as irrational as it may be, turns me into a monster.

I'd love to hear from people who don't have this fear, because it's so strange to me to think that people can look at them and not feel panic like I do. Maybe I could learn not to also?